Three years ago, God delivered me from a severe body image disorder and eating disorder. It was through His miraculous healing that I began living for the first time in over six years. It was one of the greatest feelings in the world. I finally had peace and a smile once again covered my face.
Over the course of my senior year, not only did I see my body change into a healthy, fit young woman, but my heart changed. People that had known me forever said I had a peace about me. I glowed from the inside out. Wow. I couldn't be more thankful.
I have had my share of ups and downs though since my dramatic transformation. I have had moments of not loving myself or the way my body was designed and have had to sit myself down, and tell myself over and over, that God made me and I am beautiful, no matter what.
Recently, the struggles have been more frequent. When this happens, I get worried. It is also a good reminder that I still need God all the time. Even post healing. I am not going to succeed all the time. I am weak without Him and the devil wants to see me fail and he will do whatever he can to see to that. But with God's help and strength, I am victorious. This is my wakeup call ... I need my Lord and Savior. I can't do this alone.
